Being "In The Moment"
The past 5 weeks I’ve been writing a book. While writing I’ve relived some pretty amazing, funny, and truly horrible moments in my life. It’s caused me to think about my actions lately, and life as a whole. I feel like I’ve definitely been too “in the moment”. I’ve lost touch with myself a little. I wonder where the substance went. For example, my friend Geri is coming over later so we can begin the 4-way-experiment. That’s cool and all, but then what? Geri’s a cool chick, but we’re not going to end up together. She’s just another good time.
I feel like I had a really good thing going earlier this year with the German girl. But she took off. We haven’t even been in touch. I get into this place where I think, “Someone cool will come around at some point. Until then I will just make the best of it. I will have as much fun as fucking possible”. Lately I feel like I’m in a place where all I’m doing is having as much fun as possible.
I’ve been way too on the surface. I need to dig deeper with everything, my dates and my life. If I keep everything on the surface there is no evolution. I will just keep coasting from one crazy story to the next. Don’t get me wrong, the craziness is just fine and it’s not stopping, but it’s not everything. I need to be more involved. I’ve been looking at my single life like a hipster house party: Have as much fun as you can with as many hot chicks as possible and get the FUCK out. I won’t learn anything I don’t already know doing that. While having fun is still good and dandy, I need to grow, too.
4 months ago
